Christmassss 2012

Post merry christmas to all!!!

Had a wonderful barbeque on the eve of christmas.... Whatever happened to 平安夜 has basically gone into smoke (pun intended).

Anyway, I will spare you the details of the barbeque since there isn't anything particularly out of the world or different from other barbeque and I did not take any photos during the session but it was really nice as we were able to stay till around 1am without being chased off by the security guards. I am definitely looking forward to the hotel stay next week to celebrate new year's eve and take note not to drink too much. hahhaa...

I also came to realize that I haboured quite a bit of unhappiness this year and hope that it will dissipate during the new year. I finally have came to the conclusion that

1) Things are not perfect and they are not meant to be perfect. What we need to do is to perservere and make the best out of the situation.

2) You have only yourself to fight for your rights so if you give it up yourself, nobody will help you. If you try hard enough, there might be someone who will assist you in the process.

3) Passion is an overrated word. Do what you want to do and keep improving on it. Someday.... you will get there.

4) Come to terms with yourself. If you don't, you will struggle a lot and feel lost. But that doesn't mean that you stop at where you are because you are only at the starting point of the race.

5) What others tell you is one thing, how you feel about it yourself is another. Never let another undermine you because it only serve to make them feel good but listen and make your own judgement.

Have a good break during this time folks and hopefully I will be able to do something that I like and excel in it.

Tether issues

I was just wondering whether anybody is having tethering issues after upgrading to version 4.1.1 (android)
It used to be a breeze to connect to my laptops using wifi but now, I can detect the network but unable to connect to the internet. Using the usb doesn't work as there is a constant pop up error message from my phone.
I can't install anything into the laptops as they are company laptops.
It has been bothering me for a while so anybody with sound advice is welcome to comment.
Thanks in advance!!

bathroom design

this is for own reference as something that I would like to have for my bathroom.
i think the showerhead is pretty cool.
p/s:  I got it from apartment therapy website.

Flowers on dandenong

Some pretty flowers to perk up your day!! Enjoy!!

Flowers on sales.... I remember they look nicer in real life... It must be my photography skills

Maybe I will design my garden (if I have one) like this in the future!



 frangipani resemblence




Strong colour



Bell like flowers

Simply love the colour of the flower.... Want to live in Aussie for the flowers.

Cute pink!

Elegant~~ Fragile~~

Day 3

Had frenchtoast for brekkie and it was tasty. However, having said that, I still prefer banana bread that I had on the first day (memory failing me at this point of time and I had to retrieve my password for dropbox)... anyways, this was how it looked like. I still finished it and couldn't eat the brunch at Miss Marples.

After which... we went up to Mount Dandenong to eat at Miss Marples (yes I mean the character who is a detective and I know I am being repetitive).... highly hyped after for their tea and scones. I didn't take pictures in the teahouse as it was rather packed and I felt awkward to take pictures. The fingers are really good... when I said fingers... it is not your actual fingers or finger food like fish and chips or calamari. It actually look like this... I guess it is some kind of dough with the cheese melted and alfalfa sprouts. I usually don't eat alfalfa sprouts as it's really "green" but I thought it complemented well here.
Disclaimer: I got this from their website: http://www.missmarples.com.au/#

The scones are really overhyped.... so I rather you eat the fingers than the scones.... The tea is pretty good but not it's not out of the world... sorry.... I gotta tell the truth....

It was rather squeezy but still bearable... I guess they really want to give people the cozy kind of feeling or maybe make some reference to the book.  Here's the exterior of the tea house....

Feeling kind of lazy so shall continue next time 

one nice move facebook

Facebook finally did one thing good by making comments pop up as a sub bubble rather than getting to load it as a separate page =)

a good deal...... Not

I thought i had a good deal when i came across this 10 dollar eeyore at a florist shop.
so without much hesitation, I bought it....... only to find the same one in ntuc !!!

nevertheless it was still a good deal but i cant help but feel that i got cheated by this deceivingly cute toy >_<

silkair vs sia

my dad brought up this topic when he was  driving me to the airport.

i told him... actually, they offer about the same kind of service but it was a pride issue. personally, I do feel that sia steward/stewardess generally have more confident and pride in their work as compared to the silkair stewardess (dont recall there are silkair steward for the flights i took). maybe it's the way they handle difficult customers (not heeding safety procedures like switching off the phone) that made me feel this way or maybe it's my own biasness towards the aircraft.

note to self: people do feel it when you have pride in your work.

nothing beats flying back and having these

slept almost immediately upon reaching the hotel...
the room is pretty good despite the somewhat dodgy exterior...
the pro - there is internet connection, think it is connected to a shopping mall but didnt explore as i reached the hotel at 10 plus
the cons - view from hotel is blocked, no breakfast provided
will choose the hotel that i frequent... heehee

Anybody knows of a good alternative of a vanilla smelling perfume??

This costs too much for comfort.

Just went to Aussie for around a week recently.... and all I wanna say is that I love the weather.
I just wanted to blog about it because I want to keep it as a memory. I did not take a lot of pictures as I was simply lazy.... Really happy that I met up with my friends living in Aussie as I was trying not to be too touristy.... but I think it ended with me not doing important things like seeing a real life kangaroo and koala bear.

On the first day when I arrived in melbourne after travelling for 8 hours on emirates (oh... talking about emirates.... I think they have more leg space than SIA and their fare is quite reasonable. Note to self to book that in the future), I met up with my friend who insisted that I should start looking around the city right away. So we went to have brunch at one of the cafes. I ordered some mushroom pasta which I don't really like and it ended up him finishing 1.5 plate of food. Frankly, I prefer the lasagna that he ordered. hahaha....

Next up, we went to take a look at the state library which was pretty spacious and very well sectioned. I went to look around at some ongoing exhibitions in the library that are not too draining.... I didn't know that older biology books, they actually have illustrations for the animals or plants beside the description. It is at least a B4 sized book and the illustration spans for the whole page and it was coloured. I also remembered that I saw the religious text that was carved on pretty thin wood bark. It was pretty impressive.

We proceeded to drink coffee at this cozy cafe which had pretty good coffee I thought. I forgot the name but I am sure in times of need, I should be able to ask my friend. whahaha..... we had the ice coffee and the vanilla ice cream was soooo good~~~

At night, we met up with his friend and went to a Greek restaurant. I am rather open to go to "out of norm" restaurants but somehow, Greek restaurant gives me that feeling that I am going to have to eat a lot of feta cheese (I am not a cheese fan so it slightly bothered me). But it turned out that I was wrong... there wasn't really a lot of feta cheese and all the dishes are pretty refreshing and minty.
Somehow, I took a picture of the menu and the place.

So the night ends for Day 1.

 

 

For Day 2, I managed to hop on for a vineyard tour. I was pretty hyped up about it because I never been to one before and actually had thoughts of being a sommelier. The first one that we went was scenic as you can see from the pictures from above... The place was filled with the aroma of the wine and it was pretty cool to see the real stuff.

We proceeded to go to 2 other vineyards. I really liked a Shiraz from Seville estate that I bought it immediately... It was nice sharing it with my family as they liked it as well.

How could I forget to blog about the tasty banana cake I had in the morning. I think I start to understand why my bf's mum love to make banana cakes. She must have had really good ones when she was in Aussie.

 

 

The night ended with a good dinner, oyster shots, johnny walker blue label (I still prefer martell cordon bleu) and a long stroll as wanted to save up on the taxi fare. I really like to take long strolls in cold countries as you get to enjoy the surroundings without getting sweaty and uncomfortable.

 

End of Day 2~

 

smell like salted fish now due to prolonged exposure to the kitchen frying them...

Anyway, any architects out there that are interested to help design a 2 storey high house, resort style~~

When I see the queue at Malaysia customs, I am glad that I am still a Malaysian...

I think my parents are really not very comfortable with me going to and fro Malaysia that often (average maybe 1-2 times a month) and the fatigue just adds up... hahaa.... not to mention I have been involved in chats (aka meetings) that I am not suppose to be in because they are still trying to find a replacement for my manager for 2 months~~

sometimes, it just hits you on how your parents have aged.... although they can still be fiesty at times....

I was watching cna one day and came across this online course website known as coursera. Have been trying really hard to complete one of the courses but it seems to take forever.
Wish I could be more motivated to learn....

waiting

I'm waiting here... standing like an idiot and waiting for lotusnotes to be installed..
a breather in the midst of chaos.....
I should be thankful.....

anyway, since I am so free... I thought it might be a good idea to blog..... but nothing much I wanna say....
been watching interior design shows..... trying to get inspired on what furnitures to get in the future....
saw this table from gizmodo which I think it's cool and I wanna get it

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work is getting the better of me....
which means...... it's time to plan for another holiday... Hahha.... I want to Thailand and Korea.... maybe I should go to both huh... =p

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the solution

leave on time, don't bring laptop, and ________.
=]

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trolls

trolls at work
think I will just heck care already... why waste my time to help and motivate them

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majority overeating..... manzzz.....

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hopeful

hope that you can get through Friday and be my lunchie kaki!!!! HAHAHA

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nuffnangx

as many who follows bloggers or Twitter might already know... today is the launch of nuffnangx. my guess that it combines the social media into one platform is incorrect but I'm still impressed (even though I think it has crashed and still recovering or maybe it's my internet connection) hahaha
but anyway, really smart idea but think they will still need a little tad more time to resolve various issues like unable to claim your blog intuitively or clicking on any options will lead you to set up your newsfeed.

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running nose

the work load has taken a toll on me 
think I am not up to working OT....
God help me... I'm in the wrong career
=p

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no more napping

After taking on the new projects , I haven't been napping... maybe that's the reason why I (think I) slim down 
Should be ♥♥♥ ing it right?? Hahha

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Saturday morning

it's interesting to see the news and pictures of topless duchess
At least now we know hers are natural
=P
Guess the royalties are getting liberal
Hoho

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iphone 5

A nice model... as they said....
Not outrageously upset after hearing what it has to offer But I would have love to have The design
Getting used to S3. It's just the predictive text that irks me the most.. internet navigation useability is I would say average.

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I had a lot of inspiration to blog yesterday because I have been seriously thinking that I am currently wasting my time.... surfing face *stalking people in general*, reading through famous people's blog, looking at twitter and updating the most mundane things of my life (not to mention that I dreamt that my family dog got slaughtered alive and I saw the slicing of the thigh. Oh god..... don't ask me why I have such dreams and never in my life do I want to do such a thing to the dog... I even cried in real life - which in turn woke me up)
Anyways, yes... I am bothered by the fact that I am not doing anything productive in my life - like wasting my time doing this blog as well. Worse of all I think I do not know what I really want to do. I am not a person with a *happening* life. I just like to lie on the bed, read some facebook updates, nap a little, eat when I'm hungry and continue with my life. I don't really like to complain or bitch about other people because I see no value in doing that and it reflects bad on me.
I am however thinking whether I can better manage my finance so that I can spend more comfortable. One day when I was going home, I was thinking..... damn.... should I just take a taxi, it will shorten the trip by half the time.... but when I got off the taxi, I realized I have spent 10 times the amount that I would have spent on public transport for shortening a trip by about half the time. It's not that I cannot afford it and will go hungry after it but it's just whether it was worth spending that money. Money spent so not much more to ponder about anymore.
I decided that maybe... just maybe I should really do some research on investment.... however, I do lack the motivation because I am just a person who is lazy in the first place - Not that anybody care except myself. I decided that I should blog about it..... the journey of my investment discovery.... so that I have more motivation to find materials to blog about and benefits me by having me to recall the things I have read through. I don't know how far I will go about blogging it or how long I can sustain. but I think this beats writing about mundane things in my life and not having any productive information going into my brain. lol 

really seem that writing popular topics can indeed garner more readership....
let's try.... LKY rumours~~~ hohoho

Although it has been repetitive, but... OH AM GEE.... It's August already. I don't even recall what did I do in July.

I vaguely remember watching the semi finals for table tennis and heard that Malaysia lost to China for badminton. Not much emotions evoked because I lack patrotism (the bad of being a PR? maybe?). But interestingly, the reaction by Singaporeans towards the bronze win is varsely different from that of Malaysians towards to the silver win. I think it only goes to show how much foreign talent can bring glory to the country even though it has been like 50 odd years since Singapore won anything in the Olympics and I take it that FTW has converted citizenship in order to represent Singapore. I remotely think that Singaporeans are generally pissed that they are footing the 250,000 bill as well as the president's flight to london to support them. In case you are caught unaware, that's the prize for FTW for winning bronze. In the case of LCW, people are consoling him and thanking him for uniting Malaysia for a span of maybe 1 hour or 2? Maybe LCW should become the prime minister for Malaysia ( sorry.... I am just joking). Lin Dan's comments were inappropriate though.... saying that LCW has to face immense pressure because for china, they can still win gold for the badminton doubles whereas this match is the only hope for Malaysia to get a gold medal. I really don't know whether the comment serves to justify that LCW didn't perform (because of the heavy responsibility that he has to undertake) or plainly bragging about China's ability to win gold medals. Anyways, at least both won a medal.

Late payment of credit card bills.... shit

Time passes so fast.... It's already July!! Can you believe it!!
Anyways, my travels have died down (phew~~~). No more crazy travelling schedule anymore!
Picked up reading again.... And have been furiously reading.....
Also completed my first round of D3 but the equipment changing are driving me crazy so glad that bf is happily taking over that part of the game. Not sure whether I will continue to train until lvl 60. Heez....
May be picking up tuition again.... And seriously thinking of getting a car if I am able to earn some extra income from the tuition. Will definitely be better for me and bf so that we can have total control of our travels and the fact that we probably will really need it.
Anyway, there will be a new contender for the car soon. Hope that she can pass the first time round, nevertheless. =P

Sometimes, I feel we are on different planets....

Sometimes, I feel lost.... Sometimes, I feel sadness.... Sometimes, I just want to let go as life only accumulates sadness..... Happiness.... seems like a light at the end of the tunnel that is impossible to reach.
Such is life.....

Few will understand the pain I am goin through. =(

It's day two. Woke up with swollen eyes.... but there are less outburst of tears today. I chose to take it positively... I am bombing your whatsapp.... I hope that you are still part of my life and continue to do so.... This is how it feels.... to lose someone.....  

The moment I saw the caller ID, my heart sank. I had a bad omen due to the nightmare I have had yesterday but silently wished that it didn’t come true. Tears flow down after I hung up the phone. I don’t know why too… I mean it was kinda expected but yet experiencing it is a totally different thing. The reality setting in is unbearable. I wished things were different. It is just painful… too painful not to hear your voice. Promise me you will never do it again.

Had a great holiday.... The feeling of nuaing, sleeping, watching tv, swimming.....
Comfortable.... serene......
Just great...
The next working day is the one that stinks!!! :p

Couldn't sleep

Memories

Sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, happy, sad, fulfillment, disappointment ---> all mixed into one

Sometimes, I forget that I need to slow down and breathe. Maybe that’s why I am getting grouchy and edgy these days.

The new coffee is making me feel queasy…. Urghz….

Mind blocked due to the intense training that I had to do. Heavy head…. Getting headache…. Information overload is killing me…..

A comment from bf sparked my thoughts… On why I am not close to my cousins... It is not about blaming or not being sociable or being ostracized. I guess we just didn’t click or maybe different frequency. Actually, it will be incorrect to say that we didn’t spend time together because when we were young, we actually meet quite frequently, like fortnightly at least. So it makes me wonder too. I guess I am more comfortable to be not talking, as alwaysm and sticking to the aunties and mum more than my cousins.
I guess I am weird after all. Hurr hurr….

Focus focus focus.... I really need to start focusing.... mind have been drifting about too much!!! It's not productive at all!

As I am reading everybody’s facebook posts and blogs, I think it will be nice for me to reflect on what has happened in 2011.
In the first 3 months, I was still getting over my past relationship. The turmoil that I had to go through was horrendous… Crying until 4am every day and questioning my worth and what I have done wrong.
In the next month, I got together with someone whom I thought will be suitable for me. However, things did not work out because we have too much differences and the awkwardness between us pushed me to make the cut. I had really wanted it to work.... but it’s really just too hard.
In the next month, I got together with someone else again….. unexpectedly. It was totally unplanned for but I guess the chemistry between us made the situation a lot less awkward. Even though I knew him for a really really short time before we got together, everything worked…. magically. We communicated a lot…. Talking about our expectations, our pasts, our goals…. And I have to say… we have a lot in common in terms of our outlook.
Being in this relationship made me suddenly realized that when one person is really in love with another, they will always include their partner in everything they do. It’s not to show that they are attached or just to have someone as a companion (so that they won’t be bored). It is the urge to share everything they are going through with someone they love and wanting them to be part of the joy. I really enjoyed joining his friends to chill and do activities and I believe he did enjoy spending time with my friends as well. I also really appreciate the fact that he is willing to make the effort to communicate with my family and really glad that his family invites me over for dinner celebrations too! Of course, we both have to deal with issues that cropped out once in a while.
Another important event that happened to me was the change of job. It was really tough to make the cut as I was getting really comfortable with the company and sort of the “senior” (due to the amazingly high turnover rate of the company). But I decided to move on… as I think I am a believer that one cannot be too comfortable with the company and I really need to fast track my career. So far, I have started new things again and I have made a promise to myself to be able to show my competency so that more projects can be delegated to myself. We shall see whether I am able to achieve this goal by the end of this year.

A rush of terror gone through my bones when I couldn't locate my phone....
Wish me luck to survive today without my phone... no pvz, fb, safari while on the train rides....
The fear is starting to overwhelm me even before I step out of the house....
I really wonder how we survived in the past without the phone.

There is only one of me so I can't possibly satisfy everybody. Sometimes, I wish I could run away from all these. It is getting unbearable.....

=(

I'm going uk tomorrow and I am getting huge adrenaline rush now.....
I didn't even pack my work document. Guess I am really in holiday mood =X

面包与爱情

我只知道拥有爱情不代表你会用拥有面包；但没有面包，即使有爱情，要维持它，难如登天。
也许你会觉得我爱慕虚荣，但请铭记在心，现实就是如此残酷。

I am so going to bloody miss you guys man..... even though you won't know it...

刺青

昨天在iPhone观看这部由杨丞琳主演的一部电影。是一部艺术片但也稍微探讨一些有趣的项目。例如同性恋、自卑感、网络。。。是一部不错的电影但结局有点令人搞不懂。哈哈。。。

我相信。。。

每个人都有属于她的人，我似乎找到那个属于我的傻瓜。
非常开心，非常快乐。

只是心理的某一处默默的希望这一切不是幻觉。

我想应该是时候改变我这个悲观的坏习惯了。

如果还有人在看我的部落格，我将很快展开新的开始，祝我好运喔！(^^p)

Weird

It's weird why something in my everyday life keeps challenging me; when all I want is a simple life.

I believe that things happen for a reason.... Whether it is a good or a bad one is another matter altogether.

Having talk the issues yesterday made me think about issues that is bottling up in me. I am glad to have talked it out and venting out my frustration of the various things in my life.

I should really start thinking about my priorities.

I worry too much.

I wish I could just let it all go at once to retain the beautiful memories before they turn ugly.
Sighz...

I am in a dilemma, as always.....

我累了，别再这样折腾我

It's weird when I am advising another, knowing exactly how she thinks, knowing exactly what is the outcome and knowing what is the logical thing to do to resolve the situation and Yet, I am caught in the same situation with her, unable to move on completely with my life.

I guess it's like a turtle who has broken free after getting caught in the net. You know exactly how horrible it felt to be caught in the net, you went through hell and nearly drowned when struggling to break free. You felt the sense of relief when you broken free, swearing to yourself that you will never ever go near the net.

You will be enjoying your life thoroughly, exploring the new things on the other side of the net, trying out new adventures. But one day, without warning, you saw the fishes that you dreamt of eating and memories of swimming at the other side of the net. The worse thing is that you no longer feel that the net is so taunting anymore.

This is what I call stupidity. Thorough stupidity.......

This is crazy..... Freaking crazy!!!

勇敢一点，再勇敢一点

受不了了
我要逃跑

Random questions that pop out of my head

Why things happen? Is it for a reason?

Why bother about what people think? Is it not enough to just think for yourself?

What does life mean to you? Another journey without joy?

I wish that sometimes, I have answer to this questions.... Maybe I will feel better and lead a happier life.

Good bye...... I will remember the good times we have had together

I am happy. I guess it is all that matters. =)

What stats can do to you

http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/significant.png

Happy!!
Let's live the moment.. that's the most important thing now. =)

Confused

Confused of what I should do.... Sigh

Happiness

I got hurt, blamed and scarred......
Will I ever recover???
I ponder a lot.... I ask myself is it possible to find happiness and strength to carry on?
I'm not sure
I don't know
I will never know......
It is scary when you don't know what your heart feels anymore......
Really scary..... Very afraid.....

There are times in your life that you feel uncertain, worried and not knowing which direction you should be heading. There isn't any reason why it happened or you are simply unaware of it.

Maybe I have taken things for granted, maybe i thought that by keeping myself busy will help me get over all these uncertainties. But when I sit alone, trying to figure out the question of "What next?", I find myself in a situation where there are no answers to my question. I start to think hard of what it is, start to reflect what have I done in the past to get me through my life. I am fearful, with each step of my life and every stepping stones looking a little shaky, I tread carefully, fearing that one day I might fall into a deep waters that surround the stones. When I look back, there are points in my life where I thought to myself "I could have done better, I should have.... I could have...." My life is constantly surrounded by thoughts like this which makes feel nervous whenever I make the next decision.

It sucks to know that nobody can help in this situation and I guess my life will continue to be like on a balancing beam.

Getting really busy nowadays... I am practically packed on weekdays except thurs and weekends are packed with tuition. I hope that I have the power to continue and I really feel guilty towards one person. =p

Managed to get my dad's car for a day as my parents went to kukup. =D

It was quite an experience as I needed to do U turn quite a lot of times >_< but managed to get to workplace in the end. Unfortunately, I had to be drive in the rain without my parents beside me. It is rather stressful but the only comfort is that all the drivers around me is driving safely so there wasn't any surprises for the drive.

I also realised that getting a car is super expensive and I won't be getting one in the near future. Parking is already killing me in one day. =(

I am also starting to attend the course in NYP. Met someone from NUS so it is really fortunate!!!!! HAHAHAHA...... it's good to be back to school and I am glad that I feel this way (in case I still have dreams to do my masters). Hopefully, this will be sustainable throughout the whole course. Muahahhaa.....

Are there times when someone asked you about your strength and you really can't think of anything?
Are there times where you feel that you are incapable of doing anything?

That is what I am feeling now. Damn....

As my contract passed the half year mark, everybody is asking me to find another job already. I am always reluctant to do such stuff because I find it a hassle to look for jobs. I am quite sure that I won't get a higher position if I stayed on and I do ask myself whether I want to remain in this position and the answer is obvious. Not that I want to be unloyal that but it really doesn't make sense for me to stay on and I should seriously let others have the opportunity >_<. Need to tidy up my CV and start to do searches on those search engines and major related companies. Hopefully I can find a boss like the current one... I really like the environment in the current company and I think I won't be so lucky next time round.

Maybe planning for an overseas trip (again!) but I do wonder which are the places that I want to go man. Anyway, it will be Europe (it's as if I can get so much money to do another trip). I will plan out the budget and see how everything goes. On a side note, I realised that I am quite hesitant in going to South-East countries like Vietnam and Thailand (can you believe it?!!). I don't know why but I am really worried about the language barrier (not that I can speak German or Italian in any case). So many things to do yet have so little amount of cash at hand. ARGH.......

Feeling tired restless worried all at the same time. I guess stress is always building up and I am just not catching up!!!!

Watched the nightmare before christmas. It's really interesting and I can see that Tim Burton must have put in A LOT of effort just to do this movie. I think I might catch the other stories if they are on sales. heehee.....

Update:
Sembawang music if officially closed (not that I care since I don't even own 1 cd. Hmmmm..... On second thoughts, maybe I did own some cds before but not sure what is it)
A 18 year old got killed by bf? It looked quite violent since there are stabs at very major organs. Poor girl......
HDB sales figure in red?!!! I seriously don't believe!!!

Need to lose some weight!!!

It is an achievement for me that I have managed to help a student to improve from fail to B3. Yea!!! =D

Going to drop my students from the current 6 --> 2 as all the others are already having their major exams.... Hope the best for them!!

In the end, I did nothing at all..... But it's quite a nice feeling to slack around, do nothing, thinking about nothing and playing my restaurant city..... hahahaha...... Life is about enjoyment, work, or passion? I wonder???

Oh ya... Managed to get in contact with my friend... Glad she is alright although she must be going through a tough time with all the therapies that she needs to undergo to kill all the bad cells that is still within her. Jiayou to her!!!

Long weekends.... what to do??? maybe it's time to visit sasa or maybe a night out with red wine in hand.... I miss those days where I am doing practically nothing. (not that I have a lot to do now though)

I shall regain my freedom from work (for 1 day!! =P)

I think my stress level has gone up again because all the students I teach are going through either 'O', 'N', PSLE or streaming.

Sometimes, I feel that i am more stressed than them.... HAHAHA.....

Really thinking very hard on how to help them through one of the many hurdles in their lives but nothing seems to work out everytime. hahaha.....

Found mozarella cheese (authentic soft ones) and chocolate from Dove. Sasa if gonna be so excited.... I think I should give her a surprise someday by bringing the two items when I stay over at her house. heehee.....

While I was logging to use my blogsite as the link to other blogs, I realised the template I was using can't be used anymore... Oh well..... I shall just stick with the standard template that I have.

Just an update where I am not doing much..... Same old job, same old tuition..... everything is pretty much the same.... Erms..... maybe except my weight.... the pantry has such good snacks that I keep going to pantry to get some hot milk tea from lipton and some jap sesame snack..... really have to watch it for now man!!!

Oh ya....Yesterday had a really bad gastric though.... It's the first time in my life where I felt my limbs go soft and even feel like vomitting. Sad enough, have to leave the gathering first and didn't have my cheesecake. I think I should have some food in my bag just in case this happens again. (even though it conflicts the previous paragraph)

May be having a bbq soon.... Hopefully, it will materialise.... hahaha.... It's still in the planning stages though.... I am pretty excited actually. heehee.... :P

That's all for now.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Verdict: True. I don't know about people liking me though

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Verdict: I know I am serious but smart and determined? Hmm..... I like my small eyes!!!!

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

Verdict: Yes.... Indeed

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Verdict: How do you fall in love beautifully???

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

Verdict: Unfortunately, I didn't do well

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

Verdict: ???? I don't think they are giving me any answers.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Verdict: Hope so~~~

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Verdict: I think people who likes me will need to know this. HAHAHA....

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Verdict: Confidence??? hahaha.....

Virgin Drive:

I have decided to blog my virgin drive today. Was driving mum and dad to sembawang today and when I started reversing from the parking lot, I reversed too earlY and nearly hit the car beside me!! Fortunately, I was going at a very slow speed and managed to stop in time. :) I realised that I always turned too late. :P

First vertical parking was quite alright, definitely above my expectation. The route to Bishan (tuition) was also smooth.

Also drove in the afternoon for lunch and there was a little hiccup as a motorbike was quite near my car just now. My parents were also a little worried about the speed I am going (being a new driver with 0 day of experience). They felt that it was too fast.. hahaha.... (when I was going at 70km/h 0_o!!!) However, my car slanted when doing the vertical parking at home and my dad helped me correct the slanting problem.

It's quite a stressful but I have fun. Definitely will drive in the future. Hopefully can drive on my own soon~~~ =P

The thing to announce is that I have PASSED my driving test!! hahaha..... Was really a surprise since I heard that normally people don't pass the first time and I am beyond stress!!!! The instructor that taught me before the test ask me to stop sighing and the warm up instructor said the same thing!!

But the tester looks really nice so I had a lot more confidence and didn't do any mejor mistakes. *Heng*

Anticipating to have my virgin drive today!!!

Life can change this fast and I suddenly understand why people called life unpredictable.

It's really upsetting when one is healthy one day and passed on on the other. I really feel the need to live life to the fullest. I pray that my auntie and cousin will find peace and really hope that things will get better for the big family as a whole.
Last year had been a tormenting year for the family and I hope it won't get worse this year.

Sometimes, I feel the need to educate people on how to handle emergency situations even when I do not know much. Each passing moment means life and death in this kind of situation and one must react the right way so that to have a better chance of survival. I felt that something can be done to prevent all this but it was too late.

It seemed unreal but at the end of the day, you would realise that it's not a dream. I cannot imagine how everybody will overcome this in the end.

I really hope it is all but a dream.....

i am so happy that I can no longer contain my happiness. I have a new netbook!!! dell mini 10!!!! HAHAHA....... so happy!!!

oh my god... it has been nearly one month since I blogged.

Everything is going quite alright..... I have started working in a super low level job but aiya.... I think I will just enjoy the moment of doodling with calendar and uploading pictures. Slacker's job!!! I got so many things to buy lo but insufficient funds to do so.

Tuition is piling up like crazy cause I have like 5 tuitions squeezed into the 2 miserable weekends but two of the students want their June holiday, which is essentially good for me because I can kind of rest for around one month. Cousin is going to join in soon (which makes a total of 6 tuitions!!!) and
something really touching happened:

The mother of one of the students actually messaged me today to thank me for teaching her son as his grade improved quite a lot from the first term. I can sense a tinge of relief from her and I'm really glad that my efforts paid off.

Started drawing anime eyes and I really love what I drew!! I hope that the fire won't dwindle!!!

Reading the assassin's quest by Robin Hobb. I think I found a treasure!!!

Lastly, TP on 14/7. * praying super hard to get a pass *

Summary = Super busy with no life but SURPRISINGLY fulfilling

Happy Labour Day in advance!!! ( for those who are working/ studying)

Anyways, many decisions were in place for me to make these days and I guess I have made the best decision based on probability.

I always told myself that I should be more realistic in expectations and not think of the impossible. I do feel it is a rare opportunity that would probably not come again but I guess I should just move on. I shall not regret the decision that I make even though I really wanted it but can't have it due to the situation.

That's all.... more to come when I feel a little better

To guys who always complain that girls are spending too much money on saloon to do their hair

Why does head hair grow to great length whereas body hair doesn't? Nobody knows exactly, but some anthropologists believe the purpose of long head hair is to give you something to tie ribbons in. No kidding. Quoth one, "the functional significance of long head hair is almost certainly adornment, providing for the 'sexual selection' that Darwin correctly argued was a potent factor in the evolutionary process." In other words, when you drop sixty bucks at the beauty parlor, don't feel guilty--you're helping to advance the species. [1]

Reference:
The Straight Dope, Cecil Adams

hey guys, been a seriously long time since I updated my blog.

It's not been a great month that has passed and I have to say that I may really need to go and pray to guan yin one of these days. I guess life is like that, there are ups and there are downs. It's how you face it that is important. (sorry arh.... I think I am self psychoing again)

Anyways, I will update if something interesting popped up. (Seriously, nothing interesting has turned up recently. Maybe I should really go and catch movies or something like that)

was asked by my brother how to spell melancholy and he pronounced it as "miloholic". haha..... I sort of know what he meant but I didn't really know the word and spelt it as mechanholy. Seriously dumb!!! hahaha....

Oh ya... Another update is that I finally went to long bar to throw peanuts. Unfortunately, Singapore Sling is not as good as I thought it would be. Maybe I would try their Screwdriver someday.

I have been taking driving lessons for the past few days and it is progressing at a speed slightly under my expectation. Went up a kerb (shit!) and seriously hope to better negotiate that bend better next time. The instructor asked me how do I differentiate a main road from a side road and I randomly guessed it correctly. Haha.....

The instructor actually asked me to go up to 4th gear on the road, much to my surprise, because it's only my 5th lesson. Certainly hope to get my licence quickly so that I can settle this once and for all. I want to drive up to m'sia as soon as possible!!

I have also been thinking what do I want to do in life. The job applications to labs are not yielding any replies and I am really getting disheartened by it. I am no longer sure whether this is the path that I should to take. With no opportunities in sight, I feel that this might be an indication that I am no longer a suitable candidate for lab work. I'm not sure whether the economy situation actually lowers my opportunity to get a job or is it just not the right time?

I am just glad that I still don't need to ask my parents for assistance with regards to this situation. I should be more optimistic, I should have more confidence.....

Went to meet sasa and friends at her house and it was really very nice to just meet them and have fun drawing!! I seriously don't know how to draw anything that are nice but the ability to just be able to draw is really quite a feeling.

THe most most most important thing is that sasa made a folio for me!!!! It is really damn nice and I really appreciate it a lot!! Thanks girl for making this trip such a great one and hope to meet up soon!!!

Maybe I shouldn't have stayed.

Just went to ktv with my mum!!! haha.... It's her first time there and I can really feel her anxiety while singing. There will be more sessions to come (maybe with my dad too). The unagi meal was not too bad although I only ate the unagi and the jap rice~~~ hurr hurr..... (hate the mini octopus and the cai xin looks really dubious!!)

Forgot to buy the cat treat for ah mao! It's getting bigger and rounder each passing day!






Was given a site on how to make skittles vodka and I'm really not sure whether it's nice and whether I should make it!! hahaha..... Thus, I went to search on the net and it would seem to me that it should be quite a sweet drink(which made me think of sasa and jt) + refreshing~

watched underworld yesterday and felt that it is not good. I prefer valkyrie in comparison. i felt the movie was more of a story telling or should I say explanatory movie. so if you are an Underworld fan, then I would recommend that you watch it lo~~~ I am thinking whether I should watch the curious case of benjamin button since I have heard quite abit of raves about it.

Oh ya.... went to eat at an open concept "restaurant" and the moment I sat down, there is a cockroach behind me. Not that I am very bothered by it but I am not sure whether I want to disclose the name of the outlet as it may ruin its reputation. The mushroom soup didn't taste too good (because it tasted like cornstarch soup) but the main course is not too bad ( which made me more reluctant to let you guys know the name of the place). However, if you guys are clean freaks and wants to be forewarn, just ask me. kekeke.....

went for driving today and the instructor let me pass two lessons without revision! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing much happened for the last weekends despite one being valentine's day and the other my birthday.

But anyways, I met up with dia dia for lunch at hong kong cha chan ting! I had the nissin noodles (I kind of wanted to eat it) and watched valkyrie with her! It was a nice show although it's heartwrenching in the end. Borrowed a book from Mercedes lackey and hope that I would like it!! Also went to Pet's Lover corner (or something like that) to find a suitable toy for ah mao but to no avail~~~

When I come home, my bro asked me what I would like to have as prezzie! I will take time off to think of the prezzie~~~ heehee..... =P

if any of you think that JB is safe, think again.....

It's reported that a bus driver is wounded by people carrying parangs because when they are attempting to go up the bus to rob (maybe both passengers and bus driver), the bus driver tried close the doors (unfortunately, didn't work out quite well).

I don't trust the police in malaysia even though i am a malaysian. hahhaa.....

Read Dragonsong and I really want to read the next book!!!! But I don't seem to be able to find all the books in library.

I might be able to get on the Singapore Flyer this week! heehee...... Happy Happy!!!!!

I may be getting a lappie. *Grins*

On friday, managed to meet moyar and sasa for a dinner and had quite a nice talk. Went to Mr. Curry at Central to eat and I would have to say that I seriously prefer Curry Favor that's located at stamford house. It's been some time since I went to eat over at Curry Favor.... boohoo....

Oh ya.... I also attended the theory lesson for my driving and it's really damn long lohs!!! I was there from 1300h to 1730. It's been some time since I really had such long "lectures". hahaha.....

Also heard from my mum that one of my cousin died in a car accident. It is definitely not a good start for ox year. Haiz.... I seriously hope that my family can have a better year this ox year as compared to the rat year.

Just finished reading "The Boleyn Inheritance" by Phillipa Gregory. I would think that it's a sequel after "The Other Boleyn" because it talks about the wives that King Henry VIII married after Anne Boleyn, namely Anna of Cleves and Kathy Howard. I prefer the previous book since it is more exciting although I still manage to finish the book. I think I don't really like this book because it portrayed one of the queens as a stupid woman and the other an ugly one, which to me, is totally pointless.

I might be getting "The Constant Princess" to know more about Katherine of Aragon and maybe "The Queen's fool". Sasa is lending me another "bibliography" of King Henry VIII and it may give me some new perspectives on this King that reformed religion in England.

31/01- met up with primary school friends and it was really weird because it has been quite some time since we have met up with each other~~~ It has been more than 10 years since we knew each other and it's really scary when you think about it!!! But it was quite nice to just update one another about what's happening in our lives. I think they are planning for a meet up on july and hopefully more people will turn up! (only 8 turned up this time when there's like 45 people in the class!!!)

01/02- Lots of preparation for the family gathering because my mum was preparing like 7 dishes for 30 over people!! It was really crazy with all the preparation and stuff and I was damn sleepy (slept only like 6 hours cause of the msn reunion with 6D people) haha.... But I'm glad that all went well and I think everybody enjoyed themselves. I love the tahu goreng and still think my mum makes the best tahu goreng ever!!

Damn lazy today because of the overusage of energy yesterday and decided to sleep all the way today. hurr hurr.... more updates later~~~