February 06, 2012
January 30, 2012
A comment from bf sparked my thoughts… On why I am not close to my cousins... It is not about blaming or not being sociable or being ostracized. I guess we just didn’t click or maybe different frequency. Actually, it will be incorrect to say that we didn’t spend time together because when we were young, we actually meet quite frequently, like fortnightly at least. So it makes me wonder too. I guess I am more comfortable to be not talking, as alwaysm and sticking to the aunties and mum more than my cousins.
I guess I am weird after all. Hurr hurr….
I guess I am weird after all. Hurr hurr….
January 27, 2012
January 11, 2012
As I am reading everybody’s facebook posts and blogs, I think it will be nice for me to reflect on what has happened in 2011.
In the first 3 months, I was still getting over my past relationship. The turmoil that I had to go through was horrendous… Crying until 4am every day and questioning my worth and what I have done wrong.
In the next month, I got together with someone whom I thought will be suitable for me. However, things did not work out because we have too much differences and the awkwardness between us pushed me to make the cut. I had really wanted it to work.... but it’s really just too hard.
In the next month, I got together with someone else again….. unexpectedly. It was totally unplanned for but I guess the chemistry between us made the situation a lot less awkward. Even though I knew him for a really really short time before we got together, everything worked…. magically. We communicated a lot…. Talking about our expectations, our pasts, our goals…. And I have to say… we have a lot in common in terms of our outlook.
Being in this relationship made me suddenly realized that when one person is really in love with another, they will always include their partner in everything they do. It’s not to show that they are attached or just to have someone as a companion (so that they won’t be bored). It is the urge to share everything they are going through with someone they love and wanting them to be part of the joy. I really enjoyed joining his friends to chill and do activities and I believe he did enjoy spending time with my friends as well. I also really appreciate the fact that he is willing to make the effort to communicate with my family and really glad that his family invites me over for dinner celebrations too! Of course, we both have to deal with issues that cropped out once in a while.
Another important event that happened to me was the change of job. It was really tough to make the cut as I was getting really comfortable with the company and sort of the “senior” (due to the amazingly high turnover rate of the company). But I decided to move on… as I think I am a believer that one cannot be too comfortable with the company and I really need to fast track my career. So far, I have started new things again and I have made a promise to myself to be able to show my competency so that more projects can be delegated to myself. We shall see whether I am able to achieve this goal by the end of this year.
In the first 3 months, I was still getting over my past relationship. The turmoil that I had to go through was horrendous… Crying until 4am every day and questioning my worth and what I have done wrong.
In the next month, I got together with someone whom I thought will be suitable for me. However, things did not work out because we have too much differences and the awkwardness between us pushed me to make the cut. I had really wanted it to work.... but it’s really just too hard.
In the next month, I got together with someone else again….. unexpectedly. It was totally unplanned for but I guess the chemistry between us made the situation a lot less awkward. Even though I knew him for a really really short time before we got together, everything worked…. magically. We communicated a lot…. Talking about our expectations, our pasts, our goals…. And I have to say… we have a lot in common in terms of our outlook.
Being in this relationship made me suddenly realized that when one person is really in love with another, they will always include their partner in everything they do. It’s not to show that they are attached or just to have someone as a companion (so that they won’t be bored). It is the urge to share everything they are going through with someone they love and wanting them to be part of the joy. I really enjoyed joining his friends to chill and do activities and I believe he did enjoy spending time with my friends as well. I also really appreciate the fact that he is willing to make the effort to communicate with my family and really glad that his family invites me over for dinner celebrations too! Of course, we both have to deal with issues that cropped out once in a while.
Another important event that happened to me was the change of job. It was really tough to make the cut as I was getting really comfortable with the company and sort of the “senior” (due to the amazingly high turnover rate of the company). But I decided to move on… as I think I am a believer that one cannot be too comfortable with the company and I really need to fast track my career. So far, I have started new things again and I have made a promise to myself to be able to show my competency so that more projects can be delegated to myself. We shall see whether I am able to achieve this goal by the end of this year.
December 24, 2011
A rush of terror gone through my bones when I couldn't locate my phone....
Wish me luck to survive today without my phone... no pvz, fb, safari while on the train rides....
The fear is starting to overwhelm me even before I step out of the house....
I really wonder how we survived in the past without the phone.
Wish me luck to survive today without my phone... no pvz, fb, safari while on the train rides....
The fear is starting to overwhelm me even before I step out of the house....
I really wonder how we survived in the past without the phone.
December 11, 2011
December 10, 2011
November 19, 2011
November 09, 2011
November 07, 2011
我相信。。。
每个人都有属于她的人，我似乎找到那个属于我的傻瓜。
非常开心，非常快乐。
只是心理的某一处默默的希望这一切不是幻觉。
我想应该是时候改变我这个悲观的坏习惯了。
如果还有人在看我的部落格，我将很快展开新的开始，祝我好运喔！(^^p)
非常开心，非常快乐。
只是心理的某一处默默的希望这一切不是幻觉。
我想应该是时候改变我这个悲观的坏习惯了。
如果还有人在看我的部落格，我将很快展开新的开始，祝我好运喔！(^^p)
September 19, 2011
Weird
It's weird why something in my everyday life keeps challenging me; when all I want is a simple life.
August 29, 2011
I believe that things happen for a reason.... Whether it is a good or a bad one is another matter altogether.
Having talk the issues yesterday made me think about issues that is bottling up in me. I am glad to have talked it out and venting out my frustration of the various things in my life.
I should really start thinking about my priorities.
Having talk the issues yesterday made me think about issues that is bottling up in me. I am glad to have talked it out and venting out my frustration of the various things in my life.
I should really start thinking about my priorities.
July 25, 2011
June 30, 2011
It's weird when I am advising another, knowing exactly how she thinks, knowing exactly what is the outcome and knowing what is the logical thing to do to resolve the situation and Yet, I am caught in the same situation with her, unable to move on completely with my life.
I guess it's like a turtle who has broken free after getting caught in the net. You know exactly how horrible it felt to be caught in the net, you went through hell and nearly drowned when struggling to break free. You felt the sense of relief when you broken free, swearing to yourself that you will never ever go near the net.
You will be enjoying your life thoroughly, exploring the new things on the other side of the net, trying out new adventures. But one day, without warning, you saw the fishes that you dreamt of eating and memories of swimming at the other side of the net. The worse thing is that you no longer feel that the net is so taunting anymore.
This is what I call stupidity. Thorough stupidity.......
I guess it's like a turtle who has broken free after getting caught in the net. You know exactly how horrible it felt to be caught in the net, you went through hell and nearly drowned when struggling to break free. You felt the sense of relief when you broken free, swearing to yourself that you will never ever go near the net.
You will be enjoying your life thoroughly, exploring the new things on the other side of the net, trying out new adventures. But one day, without warning, you saw the fishes that you dreamt of eating and memories of swimming at the other side of the net. The worse thing is that you no longer feel that the net is so taunting anymore.
This is what I call stupidity. Thorough stupidity.......
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