what i wanna say is this!

HOWL'S WALKING CASTLE is really good or should i say fantastic! the feeling still lingers in my heart.
Don't believe me? Just watched it.

fun to play!

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 60% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

it's not a matter of choice
because we are not given a choice
it's not a matter of time
because time is not there to wait for us
it's not a matter of trust
because trust is gained
it's not a matter of possession
because you are not an object
it's not a matter of sadness
because you are the one who created it
it's not a matter of happiness
because happiness is always there for you to grab
it's not a matter of being busy
because you are given all the time you want
it's not a matter of anything
because anything can happen
even the impossible is possible


haha... just getting cranky!
just wrote it in a moment of impulse
kind of like it though (at least i like it myself)

ibook here

haha..... using my friend's ibook to type this blog entry... i think i very bo liao but then at least i am updating my blog okay? i'm now currently in school doing nothing. waste 4 hours of my life doing nothing so i have decided to write something and contribute to the society. haha..... i think i should really do something constructive so i shall stop here and do something more constructive to at least myself. lol...
Cheers!

Happy Chinese New Year To You All!

Hm.... i have recovered from my sadness! so be happy with me okay?! last night watch a show on forensic science! (IT RULES!! my next aspiration to work hard) it's about crimes and all and how the police piece up all the evidence to catch the killer. In this episode, it was rather gruesome. i can't be bothered by the details now cause i would rather focus on other stuffs. but the poor girl was killed by her friends after they raped her. it was so argh..... I mean FRIENDS! and they abandoned her in the desert for about 2 months. her skin was blackened and it was said that her body was badly decomposed. it was rather sad as the girl was only 18 years old.
it leads me thinking about whether this kind of things will happen to people in singapore. suddenly, i remembered the case of Huang na out of a sudden. Suddenly, i realised that we can't even trust people around us because sometimes, we never know what will happen next. Why does life have to be so complicated? why can't people be more innocent and stay at pure friends. the devils of money and s** are two main reasons why people target the people around them. why do they even want to invent money when it brings so much pain to people. something that i don't understand until now. is it to reward those who have worked hard and punish those who didn't? is it justified that those who had ancestors who don't work hard are bound to enter the vicious cycle of poverty? if it is really to reward those who have worked hard, then why some people have luck in getting lots of money buying toto and lottery. maybe it's just that i don't have the extra luck of getting money through lottery that i am complaining but it is a fact that can't be denied in any sense. another example is paris hilton. people are born rich and they just splurge on whatever they like, having a show for them, seeing them bitching around and all... No, i seriously think that is not justified. maybe life is unfair and that's why we shouldn't complain. blame it on the unbalanced world we have! ( which is sort of true as we always complained that life is unfair) nothing is justified.. why slog all your life to get that grim sum of money? maybe it's just a way of life that we are leading now.

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Happy Chinese new year to u pple who are seeing my blog. for those who i have not seen for very long, hope that we will be able to meet up soon! for those who i do not know.... good luck to all the things u do and for those close frens that are reading this... frens forever! OOps.... it sounds lame but nevermind. haha...
valentine's is coming and i look forward to it this year. my small little boy will be with me and my frens will be there. the other reason why i am looking forward to it is because my birthday lies on the next day on valentine's day! happy birthday to myself. just very happy that i have grown older because age is something that cannot be bought with money. experience comes with age. although one day i will be complaining about my back aches... i know that my small little boy will be there for me. haha..... Last but not least!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!

Cheeros!

Take the quiz: "What Kind of Soul Do You Retain?"

Free
You have an open heart and open mind and you chose not to let anyone get to you and the way you want to live.

sad

title: sad
the only word that i can describe about my feeling for the past week.
nothing else can be more suitable for me.
what would my future lie? where would i go?
i would be where i should be going...
sadness.... it's the only feeling i have now.
when will it heal? i am not sure
if it does not, it shall be integrated into part of my life..
it would be... it's not my choice but i will live with it.
Thank you to shurong and jieting.... u have been my support all this while
what u two told me will leave inside my heart...
thanks to strangers that also gave me advice...
i grow... i have learnt that life will never be the same but life will never be stagnant... time will pass and i will too hopefully.
Thank you for seeing my blog.