There are times in your life that you feel uncertain, worried and not knowing which direction you should be heading. There isn't any reason why it happened or you are simply unaware of it.

Maybe I have taken things for granted, maybe i thought that by keeping myself busy will help me get over all these uncertainties. But when I sit alone, trying to figure out the question of "What next?", I find myself in a situation where there are no answers to my question. I start to think hard of what it is, start to reflect what have I done in the past to get me through my life. I am fearful, with each step of my life and every stepping stones looking a little shaky, I tread carefully, fearing that one day I might fall into a deep waters that surround the stones. When I look back, there are points in my life where I thought to myself "I could have done better, I should have.... I could have...." My life is constantly surrounded by thoughts like this which makes feel nervous whenever I make the next decision.

It sucks to know that nobody can help in this situation and I guess my life will continue to be like on a balancing beam.

Getting really busy nowadays... I am practically packed on weekdays except thurs and weekends are packed with tuition. I hope that I have the power to continue and I really feel guilty towards one person. =p

Managed to get my dad's car for a day as my parents went to kukup. =D

It was quite an experience as I needed to do U turn quite a lot of times >_< but managed to get to workplace in the end. Unfortunately, I had to be drive in the rain without my parents beside me. It is rather stressful but the only comfort is that all the drivers around me is driving safely so there wasn't any surprises for the drive.

I also realised that getting a car is super expensive and I won't be getting one in the near future. Parking is already killing me in one day. =(

I am also starting to attend the course in NYP. Met someone from NUS so it is really fortunate!!!!! HAHAHAHA...... it's good to be back to school and I am glad that I feel this way (in case I still have dreams to do my masters). Hopefully, this will be sustainable throughout the whole course. Muahahhaa.....