A comment from bf sparked my thoughts… On why I am not close to my cousins... It is not about blaming or not being sociable or being ostracized. I guess we just didn’t click or maybe different frequency. Actually, it will be incorrect to say that we didn’t spend time together because when we were young, we actually meet quite frequently, like fortnightly at least. So it makes me wonder too. I guess I am more comfortable to be not talking, as alwaysm and sticking to the aunties and mum more than my cousins.
I guess I am weird after all. Hurr hurr….
January 30, 2012
January 27, 2012
January 11, 2012
As I am reading everybody’s facebook posts and blogs, I think it will be nice for me to reflect on what has happened in 2011.
In the first 3 months, I was still getting over my past relationship. The turmoil that I had to go through was horrendous… Crying until 4am every day and questioning my worth and what I have done wrong.
In the next month, I got together with someone whom I thought will be suitable for me. However, things did not work out because we have too much differences and the awkwardness between us pushed me to make the cut. I had really wanted it to work.... but it’s really just too hard.
In the next month, I got together with someone else again….. unexpectedly. It was totally unplanned for but I guess the chemistry between us made the situation a lot less awkward. Even though I knew him for a really really short time before we got together, everything worked…. magically. We communicated a lot…. Talking about our expectations, our pasts, our goals…. And I have to say… we have a lot in common in terms of our outlook.
Being in this relationship made me suddenly realized that when one person is really in love with another, they will always include their partner in everything they do. It’s not to show that they are attached or just to have someone as a companion (so that they won’t be bored). It is the urge to share everything they are going through with someone they love and wanting them to be part of the joy. I really enjoyed joining his friends to chill and do activities and I believe he did enjoy spending time with my friends as well. I also really appreciate the fact that he is willing to make the effort to communicate with my family and really glad that his family invites me over for dinner celebrations too! Of course, we both have to deal with issues that cropped out once in a while.
Another important event that happened to me was the change of job. It was really tough to make the cut as I was getting really comfortable with the company and sort of the “senior” (due to the amazingly high turnover rate of the company). But I decided to move on… as I think I am a believer that one cannot be too comfortable with the company and I really need to fast track my career. So far, I have started new things again and I have made a promise to myself to be able to show my competency so that more projects can be delegated to myself. We shall see whether I am able to achieve this goal by the end of this year.
In the first 3 months, I was still getting over my past relationship. The turmoil that I had to go through was horrendous… Crying until 4am every day and questioning my worth and what I have done wrong.
In the next month, I got together with someone whom I thought will be suitable for me. However, things did not work out because we have too much differences and the awkwardness between us pushed me to make the cut. I had really wanted it to work.... but it’s really just too hard.
In the next month, I got together with someone else again….. unexpectedly. It was totally unplanned for but I guess the chemistry between us made the situation a lot less awkward. Even though I knew him for a really really short time before we got together, everything worked…. magically. We communicated a lot…. Talking about our expectations, our pasts, our goals…. And I have to say… we have a lot in common in terms of our outlook.
Being in this relationship made me suddenly realized that when one person is really in love with another, they will always include their partner in everything they do. It’s not to show that they are attached or just to have someone as a companion (so that they won’t be bored). It is the urge to share everything they are going through with someone they love and wanting them to be part of the joy. I really enjoyed joining his friends to chill and do activities and I believe he did enjoy spending time with my friends as well. I also really appreciate the fact that he is willing to make the effort to communicate with my family and really glad that his family invites me over for dinner celebrations too! Of course, we both have to deal with issues that cropped out once in a while.
Another important event that happened to me was the change of job. It was really tough to make the cut as I was getting really comfortable with the company and sort of the “senior” (due to the amazingly high turnover rate of the company). But I decided to move on… as I think I am a believer that one cannot be too comfortable with the company and I really need to fast track my career. So far, I have started new things again and I have made a promise to myself to be able to show my competency so that more projects can be delegated to myself. We shall see whether I am able to achieve this goal by the end of this year.
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