I worry too much.

I wish I could just let it all go at once to retain the beautiful memories before they turn ugly.
Sighz...

I am in a dilemma, as always.....

我累了，别再这样折腾我

It's weird when I am advising another, knowing exactly how she thinks, knowing exactly what is the outcome and knowing what is the logical thing to do to resolve the situation and Yet, I am caught in the same situation with her, unable to move on completely with my life.

I guess it's like a turtle who has broken free after getting caught in the net. You know exactly how horrible it felt to be caught in the net, you went through hell and nearly drowned when struggling to break free. You felt the sense of relief when you broken free, swearing to yourself that you will never ever go near the net.

You will be enjoying your life thoroughly, exploring the new things on the other side of the net, trying out new adventures. But one day, without warning, you saw the fishes that you dreamt of eating and memories of swimming at the other side of the net. The worse thing is that you no longer feel that the net is so taunting anymore.

This is what I call stupidity. Thorough stupidity.......

This is crazy..... Freaking crazy!!!

勇敢一点，再勇敢一点

受不了了
我要逃跑

Random questions that pop out of my head

Why things happen? Is it for a reason?

Why bother about what people think? Is it not enough to just think for yourself?

What does life mean to you? Another journey without joy?

I wish that sometimes, I have answer to this questions.... Maybe I will feel better and lead a happier life.

Good bye...... I will remember the good times we have had together

I am happy. I guess it is all that matters. =)

What stats can do to you

http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/significant.png

Happy!!
Let's live the moment.. that's the most important thing now. =)

Confused

Confused of what I should do.... Sigh

Happiness

I got hurt, blamed and scarred......
Will I ever recover???
I ponder a lot.... I ask myself is it possible to find happiness and strength to carry on?
I'm not sure
I don't know
I will never know......
It is scary when you don't know what your heart feels anymore......
Really scary..... Very afraid.....

There are times in your life that you feel uncertain, worried and not knowing which direction you should be heading. There isn't any reason why it happened or you are simply unaware of it.

Maybe I have taken things for granted, maybe i thought that by keeping myself busy will help me get over all these uncertainties. But when I sit alone, trying to figure out the question of "What next?", I find myself in a situation where there are no answers to my question. I start to think hard of what it is, start to reflect what have I done in the past to get me through my life. I am fearful, with each step of my life and every stepping stones looking a little shaky, I tread carefully, fearing that one day I might fall into a deep waters that surround the stones. When I look back, there are points in my life where I thought to myself "I could have done better, I should have.... I could have...." My life is constantly surrounded by thoughts like this which makes feel nervous whenever I make the next decision.

It sucks to know that nobody can help in this situation and I guess my life will continue to be like on a balancing beam.

Getting really busy nowadays... I am practically packed on weekdays except thurs and weekends are packed with tuition. I hope that I have the power to continue and I really feel guilty towards one person. =p

Managed to get my dad's car for a day as my parents went to kukup. =D

It was quite an experience as I needed to do U turn quite a lot of times >_< but managed to get to workplace in the end. Unfortunately, I had to be drive in the rain without my parents beside me. It is rather stressful but the only comfort is that all the drivers around me is driving safely so there wasn't any surprises for the drive.

I also realised that getting a car is super expensive and I won't be getting one in the near future. Parking is already killing me in one day. =(

I am also starting to attend the course in NYP. Met someone from NUS so it is really fortunate!!!!! HAHAHAHA...... it's good to be back to school and I am glad that I feel this way (in case I still have dreams to do my masters). Hopefully, this will be sustainable throughout the whole course. Muahahhaa.....

Are there times when someone asked you about your strength and you really can't think of anything?
Are there times where you feel that you are incapable of doing anything?

That is what I am feeling now. Damn....

As my contract passed the half year mark, everybody is asking me to find another job already. I am always reluctant to do such stuff because I find it a hassle to look for jobs. I am quite sure that I won't get a higher position if I stayed on and I do ask myself whether I want to remain in this position and the answer is obvious. Not that I want to be unloyal that but it really doesn't make sense for me to stay on and I should seriously let others have the opportunity >_<. Need to tidy up my CV and start to do searches on those search engines and major related companies. Hopefully I can find a boss like the current one... I really like the environment in the current company and I think I won't be so lucky next time round.

Maybe planning for an overseas trip (again!) but I do wonder which are the places that I want to go man. Anyway, it will be Europe (it's as if I can get so much money to do another trip). I will plan out the budget and see how everything goes. On a side note, I realised that I am quite hesitant in going to South-East countries like Vietnam and Thailand (can you believe it?!!). I don't know why but I am really worried about the language barrier (not that I can speak German or Italian in any case). So many things to do yet have so little amount of cash at hand. ARGH.......

Feeling tired restless worried all at the same time. I guess stress is always building up and I am just not catching up!!!!

Watched the nightmare before christmas. It's really interesting and I can see that Tim Burton must have put in A LOT of effort just to do this movie. I think I might catch the other stories if they are on sales. heehee.....

Update:
Sembawang music if officially closed (not that I care since I don't even own 1 cd. Hmmmm..... On second thoughts, maybe I did own some cds before but not sure what is it)
A 18 year old got killed by bf? It looked quite violent since there are stabs at very major organs. Poor girl......
HDB sales figure in red?!!! I seriously don't believe!!!

Need to lose some weight!!!

It is an achievement for me that I have managed to help a student to improve from fail to B3. Yea!!! =D

Going to drop my students from the current 6 --> 2 as all the others are already having their major exams.... Hope the best for them!!