Tired

I’m actually getting more adapted to my university life now. Making new friends and getting better at the pace of the studies. I am actually quite ashamed that I haven’t been revising my work and I’m actually trying very hard to do the revision now. I’m actually thinking that I would bring my laptop home this weekend to do some work. I’m actually trying to read my philosophy papers now but it seems that I’m feeling rather down. With all the workload I’m facing and the pressure to make new friends increase, my support has seemingly stopped to. Now, I know that small little things in conversation really matters. I’m really not good at speaking and have offended many people in a way. Maybe I should just shut up and keep myself in a room. My intended life is kind of in a haywire and I’m really not sure how long will I be able to hold on. The purpose of me writing this and not doing my work is rather obvious. I have been fighting the depression now and actually tried to deny it but now I am tired of it. I’m tired of trying to do all the stuffs at one go. I’m tired. Really tired….
I know what I have written seems like signs that I’m gonna give up and all. Actually, I just need a place to let out all my frustration. I know in my heart where I will go. Sometimes, I need space to breathe, need time to think and need time to be myself. Can’t really understand why I am in this state. Friends, don’t worry, I just need to breathe the fresh air that once were and get on with my life.
Cheers